i still think about things at times.
i still think about what happened.
i still think about what are us now.
does your heart still have me?
or im just nobody at all.
do you still remember my face? my voice?
my eyes when we lied together when i told you you are beautiful?
because i clearly remember yours.
am i like one of your exes or even worse than those guys that you did?
im not like them
i know you were sad when i said i didnt get the air ticket to melb
but i did. as i promised.
im not like them.
maybe the reason why i left make no sense.
it doesnt to me either.
i dont understand why i did it.
maybe i loved you too much.
thats why.
you dont understand why i left. i know you dont.
i cant take it.
maybe you can. but i think we are complicated right now.
you said maybe if i tried to talk friendly.
you would reply.
but none i get.
i remembered you replied anson when u had ur work placements.
am i worse than him?
or you just decided to put me and them aside?
i know i wasnt good enough.
but give me the chance to be better.
even if it is just a "try" from you i dont mind taking the risk.
we did so much more than we should deserve this ending.
im regretted being so childish to leave.
let me use my whole life to make it up to you. kitty.
i dont want to lose you. because you are perfect for me.
not because you do as what i said.
but because the way you smile it attracts me.
the way you speak it excites me.
the way you think inspire me.
the way when u get frustrated because of stress make me feel important to be around you.
the way when u look at me makes me melt in you.
it is the way you are that i love.
that i endlessly love.

please,
im desperate for you
dont make me to be pathetic
like those guys
i dont want to be as ugly as them.
can we just talk?
for the sake of what we did in july.
baby princess...