Sigh..

Once again, i started to blog again. My will to blog seems to be very undetermined since i have had more than 3 blogs but none of them are successful, not even updated that often. Lately, i can feel that my heart is getting smaller and smaller, and just couldnt accept lots of things, not even a tiny little thing. Has i changed?! But if i did, what make me to?! Or i was always like this? Seriously, where is happiness?! Somebody told me happiness will be always around you, but i couldnt find any?! or i was wanting-for-perfection-driven?! yeah, i understand the meaning of curiosity is killing the cat, finally. Afterall, it is not so easy to understand things, especially life right?! Life just sux, even with love or without, it still sux. Whats the meaning of life?! Power?! Wealth?! Love?! After getting what you had wanted to have for like half of a centuries, u got satisfied and die?! Thats what life about?! You come to this world, study, work, earn money, have your own family and die?! If so, where are we heading?! Arent it to be the same way as where we came from?! If so, whats the point then?! God invented human for good or for bad?! Everything in front of your eyes, are not immortal, appreciate whatever it is, or you will regret for having such life.